rudechild

Dear BB,

We met in Janaury 2003, Raffles City, a place of fond memories.

I recall how you always remembered our first conversation or rather how I started it.
It was funny and embarassing for me, 'cos it's afterall the first time I did something like this.
And we hit it off immediately, having our lunch and breaks together.
I had a lil something for you but never said, and you ended up confessing of your feelings for my friend.
I kept back my feelings and helped you two got together.

We hung out quite abit, sharing our troubles and happiness.
Having fun and doing lots of crazy stuffs together.
Yes, my favourite pastime was teasing you;
And I definately enjoyed our every meeting.

Our bond growing stronger as we got closer.

Tenshi's birthday celebration at Pasir Ris,
Kim Meng's place for mahjong thereafter;
The in between cab trip where you took care of a sick me.
My birthday celebration at Kbox AMK,
Our first hug,
You coming over for dinner.

I remember how you always talk of that dinner day,
And that Dr. Cola Pepper Pepsi or something we had.
(:

Of 'cos I recall you saying how I always called you the "Silly One",
and I remember you calling me "Tomato". Heh.

Somehow we both had this lingering grey area thingy.

I knew of your feelings for me too, but we never got the opportunity,
It was always either I was taken or you were taken, or we both just aren't ready.
But we mentioned of how we're special to each other,
And how we liked this special bond between us. (:

And I miss Kbox-ing with you, how we always sang duets and suchs;
And how you always said I'm gonna give out my Jay Concert again. Haha. (:

And our frequent tannings, you and your beach volleyball itch.

How about our mala hotpot? We're sup to go for it this week remember? And you mentioned Tong Shui too,
You like that place don't you? Knowing i didn't like the service there, you still got me going. Heh. That's you,
Always so nice, so forgiving, so sincere, I'm so taken by it.

How about that night at Summer Breeze? Our final hug, our final meeting, and us teasing each other. 
How you knew I loved the ambience and you said we'll chill there again.

And of 'cos you chasing me for my license, pushing me on and telling me to hurry up 
'cos you wanna ride with me soon;
And there will be so much more places we can go.

Your departure was sudden, and I know you've never seen me cried nor have I cried for you;
You said I was always appearing to be strong. I'm not that strong now huh? (:

Kbox-ing, Tanning, Mala-ing, Tong Shui, Chilling out.
It's not gonna be the same no more.

You're not gonna be around for me to disturb,
You're not gonna sing duets with me.
You're not gonna be wearing that bikini looking hot and playing beach volleyball.
You're not gonna go all red eating mala hot pot.
You're not gonna be sharing that super biggie tasty toast.
You're not gonna be riding anywhere with me.
And I miss you.

I know I'm in denial, and somehow still wish everything is not happening, you're still here with me.
But I don't see you online anymore.

I so badly wanna whack you!
How could you leave me here, you said you will always be here, do you not remember?
And to find out about what happened, it pains me.
I should had been stricter and told you off the way you wore that helmet.
And I know it's too late to say anything now..

B, I miss you so much, you never failed to make me smile even when I'm really upset.
And I recall how you didn't wanna talk to me 'cos you felt I was belittling myself and it upset you.
And I'm sorry I can't face the fact that I won't be able to turn to you or for us to share our stuffs anymore.
It still hurts me bad each time I know that you've already left.

I take in comfort to know you're better off out there, and I hope you'll be happier B.
You'll always be in my loving memory, not to be forgotten.

I never told you this, but I love you B. (:

In loving memory of Celin Choo Hui Ting;
o3 October 1985 - 18 May 2008.